Created 25/2/2012 - 3.11am
Happy birthday Ayrton! | 4 today! | 15/3/2012
Happy birthday Izzy! | 6 today! | 21/3/2012
20/4/2012
I miss you both so much... :-(
I don't know when I'll see you again, I'm not allowed to contact your Mum so obviously it's up to her, and hence I haven't seen you for so long. I hope you understand that it's not my fault. If I was allowed to arrange something, I would, as I always did. I Love you both so much, you are all I live for and it's killing me not seeing you. :-( I hope you think about me, and if you do I hope it doesn't make you sad that you aren't allowed to see me...In fact I sort of hope you don't think about me because I don't want you to be affected, if it could only affect me then I'd live with it...somehow...
Love Daddy xx
17/6/2012
Well...It's Fathers day today and I haven't heard from either of you, really upset but obviously it's not your fault. :-( I doubt your mum has even told you about today so the responsibility lies with her, as does everything now hence I don't even see you.
Miss you both so much, I still don't know when she will make the effort, and think about you both to let you see me...Horrible day today.
Love Daddy xx
28/8/2012
Ayrton, Izzy.... :-(
I'm really struggling. I just can't carry on with the way things are. Everything I work towards was/is for you two, but none of it matters in the end. Only you two matter, without you everything else seems pointless. I've been putting money away for you both every week and it's going to be yours one day, I'll add to it as much as I can...maybe selling off everything I own. The money, the house, the cars...none of it matters to me, but if I can give you both a helping hand...
Love you both so much.
Love Daddy xx
18/9/2012
It was my Birthday today. 33...
I'm sure, or I hope you must have known about it? Any normal parent would surely let you know about it...It's just not normal compassionate behavior otherwise. But I've heard nothing from you both. No card, no contact, obviously not your fault as your Mum has not made the effort for YOU. It would have made my day. :-(
I even threw caution to the wind and sent your Mum a text asking when she is going to let me see you despite the solicitors letter she sent out saying I shouldn't contact her. But I heard nothing back. I don't know what I'm supposed to do? :-(
Love Daddy xx
19/9/2012
I tried sending your Mum another text this morning and heard nothing back again. :-(
Love Daddy xx
25/9/2012
Well it seems your Mum actually changed her number after all these years, nice of her to inform me. Does she not realise that this just further proves her lack of compassion and lack of thinking about you both? Just like when she said she wanted to 'cut all ties' between you both and Me, your cousin, Auntie, Grandma and Grandad. All of whom love you so much.
I'm sure you will only remember good times with them, it's a shame your Mum put a stop to it for no good reason.
Love Daddy xx
25/9/2012
I found out your Mums phone number, why I should have to dig around for it I don't know. I sent her a text simply asking 'When are you going to let me see the kids?', I asked at least three times but your Mum is point blank saying you can not see me, and in turn you STILL can't see your cousin Kai, your Auntie Zoe, Grandma and Grandad.
She thinks that (And I quote) "We are all being unreasonable, and abusive to "everyone" and affecting your hobbies"!? I just do not understand what she is saying or insinuating...
I hope you remember being picked up to come and see me? That was my idea. I hope you remember your Mum dropping you off to see me? That was also my idea, and I hope you remember me picking you up so that you could spend time with me? Guess what, that was also Daddy's idea. I tried different ways because your Mum always had something to say about what we were going to do, or telling me about things you had been doing where I hadn't been involved.
I'm at an absolute loss, I've tried my best but your Mum as always just won't allow you to be involved with your cousin Kai, your Auntie Zoe, Grandma and Grandad or me. There is no good reason, I'm sorry there isn't...because at least then I'd have an answer for you and for my own understanding! :-(
Love Daddy xx
26/9/2012
Well I always thought your Mum was very money driven, and today I found out that she is registered on two dating sites. RichMen.com and WealthyMen.com. Both for Men who earn over X amount of pounds. Absolutely gobsmacked, I'm just totally shocked, but it explains a lot thinking about it.
I'm also on a couple of dating sites, I don't mind admitting it, but I'm looking very hard for someone who is compassionate, caring and loving. I have little interest in money, money is a necessity but it does not make you happy.
Love Daddy xx